Hi. My name is Lindsey, and I’m a blogaholic.
Now, that doesn’t mean I write a post every day. (That would actually be nice.)
No, my confessions are much uglier than that, and at times it leaves me wondering if I need to quit this habit cold turkey. 🙁
But there is a rainbow at the end, and a silver lining. This blogaholic is in recovery and I’m here to share my journey with you.
Confessions of a Blogaholic
A few years ago when I started using Facebook as more of a creative outlet (and a place for stay-at-home Mommy to socialize!) a friend suggested blogging. It took a few years but I finally found my way to BlogWorld.
Now THIS I was born to do.
Oh, it poured down, oh did it pour.
Now, if you are a blogger yourself then you probably already know this: you want an audience. And if you are writing for an audience then there’s the chance that you want to grow. And along with wanting to grow is wanting to make money. But even if you aren’t that into monetizing – like myself – you still want to grow. You want your little space of the worldwide web to turn into an island – an island you want all to visit.
So you network.
And oh dear goodness, I’ve gone cross-eyed.
And all those wonderful little activities that you blog about (homeschooling, parenting, organizing, for me) start sliding to the side.
Blogging becomes your life. Your life becomes a side thing.
So a few weeks ago, the week before Thanksgiving, I found myself overwhelmed. I was spending hours a day watching Periscope and planning my own scopes for challenges when I realized that I wasn’t truly working toward my mission statement.
When was the last time that I completed my daily Bible reading? When was the last time that we completed a history lesson? And wasn’t this the 12th year in a row that I vowed I would finally get the weight off?
It was happening again. We were off…like way off.
So I decided to take two weeks off of blogging and social media; those same two weeks we had off of homeschooling. It was a time for family activities, creativity, and bonding.
It was time to breathe and just stay present in the moment.
Now, hear me out: I completely understand that it’s next to impossible for us stay-at-homers to stay on a strict schedule. Lunch will not always be at noon; math will not always happen at nine; and forget trying to ignore the phone and the door and the notifications. Ain’t happenin’!
But some sort of “checking off the boxes” should be occurring, right? Some sort of “Yes, we did a History lesson this month” should be said, right?
Yet, time and again I find myself veering. All thanks to a little friend of mine called “ADD”.
Yep. I be one of them.
So here I am, a few years short of 40 years old, and still waiting for that day when I feel “all together”. Waiting for the “Yep, I get it all done” to happen. And here’s the reality of that: that may never happen for me.
And yes I cry. And yes I feel like a phony.
The struggle is real.
But let me cut to the chase:
Something had to be done. I needed to get back to working hard at my mission and putting first things first.
And being that this wasn’t the first time I found myself in this situation I knew that the normal “Oh, let me write up a schedule!” wasn’t going to fix a thing.
Shoot, I write up a new schedule every week. Still searching for that holy grail, ya’ll.
No, something drastic had to be done.
Was blogging getting me closer to my final goal? Was it bringing me closer to my God? My family? My homeschooling mission?
So I decided to call it quits.
No blogging. No scoping. No social media.
Just me and my kids, homeschooling, spiritual activities, and focusing solely on the most important things in life.
24 hours later I had to laugh.
Me not blog? Yeah right.
Did you hear me in the beginning?
I was born to do this.
People watch tv. They read a book. They watch a movie. They go to the store. They paint a picture. Everyone has something they do for recreation.
Even the bible states that there is a time to play, skip about, re-create.
This was my recreation. And so much more than that. I do not want to give it up.
But how? Just how do I do this?
So this is it. This is my answer…for now.
First things come first.
There’s no doubt about that. I still had to make a decision that would force me to re-prioritize.
So here’s my formula:
- I get up. I do my morning routine which includes prayer and bible reading – no tablet! Just me and my Heavenly Father.
- The kids and I hit the pavement first thing after breakfast, before school; the time to sweat is NOW!
- I get school done. Repeat: I GET IT DONE.
- I lunch at 1:00, in which Homeschool Happy Hour on Periscope is at 1:45. I can catch that each day.
- Blogging activities must wait until late afternoon or evening. It’s that simple. They wait.
- And I’m only aiming for one post a week and one scope.
One post a week?!
And one scope…maybe two…but preferably one.
Gone are the days when my aim is to grow followers or expand or make money.
This is about me and my expressions.
Putting “first things first” means a shift in intention.I am the boss of my blog. Blogging is not my boss. #confessionsofablogaholic #thenittygrittymom Click To Tweet
It’s not my income. Not my full-time job. I don’t want to look at blogging as the reason I’m unhappy, overwhelmed, or not taking care of myself and family the way we need to be.
I want blogging to be my “thang”, my reward, my hobby, my creative outlet. My happy place.
As for my daily life, I want it to be filled with the activities that will actually get me closer to my ultimate mission in life.
Simplify. Simplify. Simplify.
When life is overwhelming chances are it’s because you are simply taking on too much. And possibly, not focusing on your mission.
I decided to cut back on the blog but still make it something that I work on bit by bit.
And let me tell you something: believe it or not one post a week on a consistent basis is probably more than I ever have done. And that’s the funny thing about being a blogaholic: I wasn’t even writing that often. It was more the networking, checking notifications, watching scopes and YouTube videos and reading other blogs and extra research that occupied my time.
And at the same time by only focusing on one post a week I am freeing up my time for other activities.
I can play a board game with my kids. I can stop procrastinating on the laundry. I can light the candles in my room, grab my coloring book, and just zone out.
Simplifying gives me margin – time slots that will allow for a more flexible schedule.
With the pressure off, I feel great!
I’m enjoying watching scopes…when I can. I’m enjoying planning future posts. I’m also enjoying reading, creative lettering, and “a cup of tea” in between it all.
Yes, this blogaholic is still going to be blogging away, but this time it’s truly going to reflect my daily activities and the life that I’m living. It will no longer be the reason that we are behind in school lessons, or the reason why the laundry is piled sky high.
(Wait…I just lied. There ain’t nothing anyone can do about Mount Washmore! Lol.)
Yes, this blogaholic has simplified, scaled down, and refocused. Enter: peace.
And if things get a little haywire in the future and I got to refocus again… Blame it on my ADD, baby!
So tell me…what’s your mommy confession? Can you relate to the struggle? Let me know! The comment box is just down below.
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